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TRANSITION::: A side of me no one knew™

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 As a kid growing up was good but i always stood out from my peers, I was never part of a group, even when i try to fit in the energy is always off-key, i never understood but i knew i was different. From my elementary till i was through with high school, I was among the dullest in class and always prefer the back-sit. As soon I got admitted into college, my first semester made me discover my intellectual perception and acknowledgeable facts that i never knew i had.. i.e ( when taking tutorials i answer questions without ever opening my handouts ) i mostly read only during exam's , i was a three part-time job and never failed a course till i got to my third year. All those years i was still battling with being understood and belonging not knowing the universe was busy setting me up for whom I'm really meant to become ( my true self ). At a point in life before graduation the universe aligned three (3) different individuals from same province but with different backgrounds and personalities. I won't mention there names due to privacy reasons but i believe once they come across this not certainly knows. 

The first ( MR A) opened my eyes and thought me how to earn rewards through  creative thinking. But i was too young and naive that ego got in, instead of regarding him as a helper i saw him as an equal. (Mistake no1)

The second ( Mr B) was sort of an acquaintance that grew to tight bond. He thought me the realistic part of life and gave me an option to choose a path but i was too stubborn and head strong and never hid to his warnings. (Mistake no2) 

While scavenging and dwelling on the mistakes that ( Mr B) warned me about i came across the third ( Mr C). We knew each other way back right from high school and he was my senior. So he took me nurtured and thought me the basics of what ( Mr A ) thought but the progress was too slow and too slow is a waste of investment and time is what ( Mr C) doesn't have which i learned in a hard way and resulted in me drifting in to a depressing state that made me almost loose my sanity. But family held me so tight when everyone threw in the towel on me, my mental health broke down that warrant me going through the system ( rehabilitation). Everyone thought it was my intake of marijuana that got me to that state so said to myself why explaining when no one was ready to listen and observe but instead gave a conclusion so cued in to the generalisation been made only a closest friend ( ifeanyi mba) that really knew what i was passing through. I was silent because i really needed to be rehabilitated mentally, emotionally, physical and spirituality which i got the mental serenity i was craving for. About four to five (4-5) months out of the system i received a surprise call from (Mr D) whom i met while i was still working with (Mr C). I visited him once in awhile at his residence till he made me a proposal on the (24th)night  of (2020). I moved in with him with a friend according to his request on the (5th) of January (2021). Though our initial understanding on his proposal was bridged i still stick with him ( Mr D ). Things started drifting from our actual purpose of moving in with him to a whole new life i have never experienced. I as too curious to dive deep with the promises made i looked passed the alot of things till i got to a certain point of self- realization that was when i left his residence without notifying him. Throughout my stay with ( Mr D ), i understood the importance of perseverance & confidence. This has been my strength till date and still developing more. Right now my knowledge knows no bounds. Perseverance brings confidence which gives birth to principle while attaining self growth 💯.

Deep thoughtfully reflex thinking relief's me of certain worries and direct my thinking to the right cause. The human mind was programmed to radiate frequencies that controls the subconscious, without the minds support the heart will always be indecisive, weak and vunrable. The mind feels no emotions it directs our cause, the heart centers, stores and analysis every bit of emotions been felt. One can only embrace light through darkness. Lose your mind and you lose everything. We're the master piece of our fate believe it or not definitely we walk through our journey's alone. No one really cares and promises sweet are lies.✴️

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